thoughts in the night...

Thunder

2008-10-01T19:22:00.000-07:00

love this song so much it reminds me of someone i used to love so much
i don't know why but i still love her even if shes with someone else now

"Thunder" is the third single from Boys Like Girls
released May 6, 2008

Today is a winding road that's taking me to places that I didn't want to go
Whoa (whoa, whoa, whoa)
Today in the blink of an eye I'm holding on to something and I do not know why
I tried

I tried to read between the lines
I tried to look in your eyes
I want a simple explanation
For what I'm feeling inside
I gotta find a way out
Maybe there's a way out

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I don't wanna ever love another
You'll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain
And bring on the thunder

Today is a winding road
Tell me where to start and tell me something I don't know
Whoa (whoa, whoa, whoa)
Today I'm on my own
I can't move a muscle and I can't pick up the phone
I don't know (I don't know, I don't know, I don't know)

And now I'm itching for the tall grass
And longing for the breeze
I need to step outside
Just to see if I can breathe
I gotta find a way out
Maybe theres a way out

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I don't wanna ever love another
You'll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain

Yeah I'm walking on a tightrope
I'm wrapped up in vines
I think we'll make it out
But you just gotta give me time
Strike me down with lightning
Let me feel you in my veins
I wanna let you know how much I feel your pain

Today is a winding road that's taking me to places that I didn't want to go
Whoa

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I don't wanna ever love another
You'll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain
And bring on the thunder, and I said
Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain
Oh baby bring on the pain
And listen to the thunder

My dear Nyte

2008-09-29T17:46:00.000-07:00

words full hatred
the last year still heard
you don’t know how i lived
with this feeling being burned

scars here in my arms
i didn’t know that you can do all this harm
you know that i am not one
still you came and kept me warm

memories still remain
lingering time and time again
her heart that i felt mine
and nights we spent time

this feeling that can’t be erased
nothing will ever take its place
your hair that gently wave
soft lips that tastes so sweet

wandering alone
in a life that’s cold
with time so slow
and me in the midst of smoke

all is lost forever
existence gone by
its in you where i found peace
and its you that made me…

die day after day

What if...

2008-09-29T17:43:00.000-07:00

What if… What if I wasn’t there? What if I never showed? What if I kept it? What if I never? What if I stayed? What if… questions that shook my life. Now, I will never be the same again. I will be more true to myself. I will do things the right way, how to deal with it and handle it. I know I’ve changed a lot, and it’s because someone came and showed some things that I’ve never run into. I thank God for the time spent and I will never forget everything that happened. It will always be here in my heart and I will treasure it for the rest of my life.

Delusion

2008-08-29T23:13:00.001-07:00

Lingering in a gloomy, demented shadow
Sloppily swaying thru its eerie shade
I see from a far, a light that breaks the darkness
Slowly I started to ran towards the light
It seems near, but not getting anywhere close to it
As I reach the light, darkness started to breakdown and shatter
A place, a glorious place flashing right through my eyes
Blinding my sight, I closed my eyes
And when I started to open my eyes everything was back
Back to the shadows where I came from,
When will this darkness end?
When will this end?

Dream

2008-08-29T23:12:00.000-07:00

Standing by myself in the shore
Watching waves of water wash down my feet
Rain started to pour gently
Staring at my reflection
Suddenly I felt anxiety within me
Losing something very exceptional for me
Never thought that this would be the biggest part of me
Thinking how would this turn out exactly
This feeling that striped me
Am I in a dream?
I don’t know whats happening to me
Wanting that this would never end
This happiness in me
Turning, spinning and revolving
Clouds suddenly dimmed
The place became empty
I didn’t notice that I was in tears
And started crying
Why am I still here?
Is it because its not yet finished?
Or I still have to do something about it
I never felt happy in my whole life
Until she came to me and loved me
A cold breeze
Wind that is eager to take me
The sun started to rise
As I laid down and sigh
Then I wake up feeling high
It was a dream
A dream that was so real
Wishing that I never woke up

Deep Inside

2008-08-29T23:11:00.001-07:00

Waiting here alone in the sand
Looking through the vast sea
Watching the moon descend
Thinking how could she not see?

Things sometimes aren't meant this way
Falling for someone you can't reach
Wondering what are the right things to say
Her heart you can't breach

As the night fades
Something in me is trapped inside
A sentiment that is so aged
Wanting to burst outside

This feeling I can't utter
Deep inside my heart I fear
The reflections in the water
And things that I will never hear

Star

2008-08-29T23:10:00.002-07:00

I want to be a star
A star in the sky
Bright at night
Radiant imaginary light
And spending years
Alone in the dark.

Alone

2008-08-29T23:10:00.001-07:00

You hate me,
You run through me,
I’m alone, you came to me,
I’m empty, please fill me.

Your sight so soothing,
Rendering me nothing,
My blood is rushing,
Now I am breaking.

Your voice, my weakness
Making me sleepless,
Blaming you for my sickness,
Now I am useless.

I need you,
I want you,
All I can do is but to look at you,
Because I am no one compared to you.

Broken Inside

2008-08-29T23:07:00.000-07:00

Light resonating down,
Unveiling a large crowd,
Standing here at the midst of fear,
And see everyone’s tears.

Broken I lie,
Shattered alive inside,
Hearts burning bright,
Haunting me thru twilight,

Someday I'll see you,
And guide me through,
When that day comes,
Everything’s gone crushing down.

Empty I come,
Alone I’ll turn into NOW